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I want to be free to be myself. I feel like I want to hide, away where it's safe, in the heteronormative spectrum where no person will really look at me. There's power and safety in anonymity, but only for myself. If I disappear from the public eye, it's a lack of security for others like me. People like me who can afford to be out are a necessary safety net for the people who can't be. This is probably how I'll get myself killed. I hate feeling scared. I feel like I've been dragged back into my teenaged self again, terrified all the time of people who look too hard at me. When did being queer become so complicated? Yukon let me hold her today. At least I have my tatoes.